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~by 羅波

You know, every once in a while you get into that wood that you are just annoyed. Nothing feels right and you are not sure what you want, but you know exactly what you don't want. I look at my bed and it looks softer and more comfy than ever, but I just took a nap. I drop my head and stare at my math notes, thinking, oh go to hell. I'm craving for food, but I don't want chocolate or noodles or jelly drink or energy bars. I pop up msn and it's the same people. Call me grumpy, tell me I'm complaining too much, but I just need a thrill. I guess you can call it routine-phobia. 

Honestly, I cannot imagine a life with a repetitive work, where you say the same words, do the same errands and meet the same people...EVE-RY DAY. High school's boring enough for me. Nothing's allowed, not only because my boarding parents force a set of rules that doesn't fit everyone to fit everyone but also because they expect everyone to do the exact same. Hell, my parents let me out till midnight when I was 15 and they didn't ask a question when I told them I was going to Fiji with my friends for community service. They didn't even know where it is but they just handed me the credit card and told me to have fun and take care, and now the school tells me I can't drive to get Jamba Juice without asking. To hell with the rules. What really kills me is the repetition. I have to say that the education here is quite laudable and most of the teachers are respectable, but it's so easy to overlook those when I am just so tired of doing the same things. 

In that sense, college is really worth looking forward to. College means a new life, new stimuli or at least, a different life. People often say that teenagers tend to be adventurous and adults are responsible enough to live a 'regular' life (which I think is a euphemism for 'cyclical'), but I hope I can at least keep the ability to be thrilled by adventures as responsibilities accumulate on my shoulders.